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I met my fiancee 6 years ago. I believe all of you went through this stage - love, sex all the time, everywhere. And we all want to be back there again. We couldnt stop time though, all these passionate stuff was becoming less intensive and our bound was naturally changing. Nothing we wouldnt know of or didnt expect as we both had experience with long term relationships before we met.
Less kissing, less touching, less sex, less passion etc. It sounds sad if I write that but we felt happy together and we were accepting that. It was coming from both of us at that time. After 3 years together we however got to the point where sex didnt go well few times consecutive, especially my fiancee admitted she didnt enjoy it and it was a breakpoint. I mean I or we wasnt broken, we werent going to leave each or something like that.
We lived happily but limited sex to minimum. The intesity was about once a month at that time but something else happened that made us not thinking about that. Despite the minimum intensity my fiancee got pregnant and we were truly happy. Pregnancy was.. Im sure you have heard about lots of women being extremely horny when pregnant, but that wasnt my fiancee. She actually had some kind of block and she didnt want sex at all when pregnant.
That included no intimacy either.. So I ended up watching pornhub in the evenings and helping myself to satisfy my needs. Ive never blamed her though, I could never understand what woman goes through. I think that was the time when the intimate part of relationship disappeared completely and we were blind to it thinking of upcoming things and life with baby. The baby was born, beatifull girl. I was with my fiancee when she was giving birth and it was the strongest emotions in my life.
At that time I loved her so much.. As expected the baby was a big changer. The little one turned our lives upside down and for couple of months I didnt even think about having sex or some playing. But then when things settled a bit.. Unfortunately not to mind of my fiancee but I fully respected that.
Time was passing.. And that was probably the time when my thoughts started gently turning into frustration. Before I tell you about my frustration from not having sex, I should probably introduce my fiancee.. She is beautiful woman with delicious curves. Dark brown hair, very soft skin which is very easy to tan. She is the kind of person who gets tanned very quickly and her tan stays very long. I love to watch her tan by the way. She is not really the skinny type of woman, as I mentioned she has amazing curves, at least for me. I would almost forgot, she has lovely smile.
Soft boobs of average size. The pictures you see were however taken during first three years of our relationship. Her body changed with the baby of course but we will get to that in later posts. And finally her ass, the biggest pride of her which even she is very well aware of. Big roundy, curvy.. With oil on her ass the lines are even more perfect. From what Im writing you probably imagine how frustrated I could easily get having this home without possibility to play with it. Like I said earlier, the sex was great between two of us.
We were enjoying many positions. We didnt have a lot of outdoor sex, but those few we had I really liked. Probably as we started living together very early, we were too comfortable.. But generally of course classics, oral, she let me do anal once when we were on vacation. It wasnt that fantastic as everyone says but I enjoyed it, it was a nice change though.
But my fiancee probably didnt enjoy it as much as I did because she told me she would never let me go through her back door again. Apart of that she never swallowed my cum and she never even let me finish in her mouth or her face. This is quite important point for the following story, so dont forget it : If I didnt finish being in her, she let me finish on her boobs or ass usually. She said she would feel like a cheap whore if having cum in her mouth or on her face.
Although I have big weakness for this she explained me this is big humiliation for her and therefore she was not going to do it. I respected and accepted that. From what I said earlier in this post about my fiancee, the way I was describing her body, you could say that I think of her as most attractive person in the world.
She certainly is for me these days but I do admit it wasnt always like that. There were times in past two years when even if I was frustrated from not having sex, I didnt find her that attractive. It wasnt about appearance though.. Raising a baby is difficult, you really have to be that kind of person fully devoted and obsessed with family to enjoy all parts of being parent.
Dont get me wrong, I never regret, I love being father.. And my fiancee was taking this even worse. She always took care amazing of our kid, but when the kid went sleep she did nothing else then rolling on the sofa watching stupid never ending tv shows or browsing social networks discussing all the time how others are doing way better than us. I had few arguments with her about that trying to persuade her to do something which she enjoys and makes her happy. You are not with the kid all the time, you enjoy your work so take care of yourself.
And Im not talking about sex at all now, that was dead long before but another activities we both would enjoy. This fortunately has changed and today I feel Im in love with her like never before and Im even happy for these downsides that we came through.
It shows you that love feelings and emotions can be restored in relationship. So now something about those times without sex. Trust me, you dont want to be sexually frustrated. Particularly not in your relationship. I know we are all different, everybody has different meaning about sex. About how often, intensity, places and so on. There might be people who want to have sex twice in a year or not at all. We definitely were not on the right path when I realised Im almost 2 years without sex.
I was always trying to communicate openly and express my feelings openly to my fiancee. My expectations were to have sex ideally once a week and experiment. I like trying new things and I dont really mean fisting or something like that. Some costumes maybe, high heels, toys, new places, places where you can easily get caught etc. Most importantly however I expect my other half to enjoy the sex with me.
Of course I understand after so many years sex is not about orgasmic explosions, but at least not being allergic to it. Regardless of what everyone thinks about these things in sex like intensity, positions etc it is worth mentioning how you look at sex as aspect of your relationship, which has nothing to do with sexual acts.
Im not an expert but I believe there are people who have the darkest sexual fantasies or maybe they even practice them and at the same time sex is not something which could affect their relationship if went wrong. For me sex and intimate life is very important part of relationship. I do however have understanding and somehow have the ability to suppress my needs if there is some reasonable cause as barrier. By reasonable I mean for example healthy issues.
And you could certainly think of these changes that woman goes through when pregnant and after giving birth as healthy ones. What is more important for me is when I see that the other half is actively trying to do something and look for solution. Even if looking for it for lifetime with no success, it is very important for me to see and know.
I was expressing and communicating my needs more often and intensively to her. I was even trying to motivate her by gifts, she agreed but again.. I also came up with the idea of visiting sex therapist, she agreed but again.. Every time we had the discussion she promised whatever I wanted.. I cannot say we didnt have sex at all though, that year it was like 3 or 4 times but when I look back I see it was only a result of me insisting.
And trust me that hurts a lot! Those few times we had sex was nothing I want to remember, she lied down, lifted up her legs and classic. We never tried another position. Except of sucking that sometimes was included she never made any activity. I always told her it was nice after hoping I will have another chance in few months and did not want to ruin it.